Once a short time ago, I had a dream. A dream of arting, designing, and whatnot. Think tanking.. Ahh.. school. My first attempt at art school was a horrible experience (what's up with that?), but I took this Intro to Industrial Design class there, and fell in love. So I focused on that positive aspect of finding out what I wanted to do with my life, then decided to go to school for that. Moving around to various states and different schools, taking community class, finally, 6 years later I was accepted and had the financial means to go somewhere with an ID program . Two semesters later? Complete fucking meltdown. Just like the first year at UArts.
It's disheartening. At this point I feel that I have discovered my limitations. Although, how I could define them is still unclear. Is it that I can not handle the pressure? Is it that I am not driven enough? Is it that I am just not a good artist/designer?? I feel like I have to come to terms with the fact that I am quite simply, not strong enough.
I've been giving it quite a bit of thought lately as to what I will do. I handle all my academic classes well. So, I guess I should probably pick something that does not demand my artistic/creative capacities. Although I have a general passion for learning, I don't know if I really have a focus. However, I think there is a common thread in all the subjects I am interested in.. Critically thinking and problem solving. This leads me to Physics.
Physics major? Perhaps.
Mental health affecting what you thought was your life plan? Stupid.